Art and Life Say “Howdy” and Shake

I hadn’t meant to linger, but when Hazel caught me just outside the post office doors, there was nothing for it but to say good morning and fold up the to-do list.  Like everyone in town, I knew the truth Hazel freely confessed. She came to the post office as much for the socializing as for stamps, and when she bumped into you, she expected to be humored.

That day, it was my turn.  We covered her loss at the weekly domino party (“they cheated”), the small size of her figs (“not near enough rain”) and the relative merits of oilcloth versus paper table coverings at a picnic. She’d just begun dissecting the virtues and faults of her grand-daughter’s new boyfriend (“polite enough, but not much use on a tractor”) when a fellow I recognized but didn’t know by name parked his truck and ambled up the sidewalk.

Hazel fairly beamed. “Harlan!” she said. “Why aren’t you out with them cows?” Harlan just grinned. “Now, why would I be spendin’ time with a bunch of old cows when I can come here and spend time with you?” Turning my direction, Harlan touched the brim of his hat with a finger. “Mornin’, ma’am.”

Hazel always remembered her manners. “Have you met this young lady?” “I can’t say I’ve had the pleasure,” Harlan said. “I sure haven’t. We’ve howdied, but we ain’t shook yet. Pleased to meet you, ma’am.” The introductions made, we proceeded to shake hands, right then and there. (more…)

Published in: on April 22, 2012 at 1:42 pm  Comments (89)  
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Heading Home

Given a choice, my mother preferred not to travel. She enjoyed being in new places, visiting family members and taking in the occasional entertainment, but she despised the process of getting from point A to point B. Packing for a trip was agony – so many decisions needed to be made!  Even getting the house cleaned and put in order before leaving created high anxiety, but it had to be done. What if you died on the road? Certainly you wouldn’t want strangers roaming through your bedroom, running their fingers over a dusty night stand and telling one another you were slovenly.

As for those hours in the car, there weren’t enough magazines, knitting projects or books in the world to overcome her impatience. Sometimes she seemed to be thinking, “If only I could close my eyes and discover when I opened them this misery had passed.” Other times, she put her feelings into words: “If I’d known it was going to take this long to get there, I would have stayed home.”

Now and then someone with an inclination to tease would call her “Dorothy”, and everyone understood the reference. She’d just laugh and say,  “If someone gave me a pair of ruby slippers, I’d be out of Oz in a minute. Being able to click my heels and go would make life a whole lot easier.”  (more…)

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The Poured-Out Heart

Slender and freckle-faced, as plain as his name, my first true love preferred Western shirts with mother-of-pearl buttons and fancy piping, even though he mostly wore soft, plaid flannels or, in warmer weather, crisp cotton with just a hint of his mother’s starch.  On the first day of fourth grade, when alphabetical luck decreed we sit next to one another in Library Class, he happened to be wearing a blue-and-white check with a single pocket and short sleeves.  Forever after, it was my favorite.

As so often happens, proximity bred friendship. When the librarian told us it was time to share books and read to one another, I read with Tim.  Encouraged to search for shelved books by Dewey decimal number, we searched together.  Entrusted with the responsibility of choosing our own book report partners, we chose each other. (more…)

The Day Godot Arrived

A few years ago, the mother of a dear friend passed away.  As often happens, some of the mother’s possessions were offered to those who’d known her as tokens of remembrance.  Another friend who’s a plant lover was especially interested in keeping alive some of Enid’s favorite flowers, so a bush or two and some potted blooms came back to Houston, while a scrubby little cactus in a hanging basket went to live at The Place.

For years The Place, a cabin tucked into 23 acres of Texas hill country valley, was my favorite “getaway” destination. The cabin itself, about 16′ x 16′ with windows all around for cross-drafts and a screen door that slapped shut with a terrific, metallic “thwang”, had all the modern conveniences: a wood burning stove for heat, Coleman lanterns, an old apartment-sized propane stove and “running water”.  The “running” was true, but a bit of a joke. It was gravity-fed from a barrel in a tree through a single faucet into the “kitchen” sink. A hand-built dam pooled water from the three springs that ran even in the most severe drought, and a submersible pump tucked into the little pool did a fine job of pushing water up into the barrel.

The valley itself was filled with scrub and live oaks, pin oak, black walnut, native cherry and the inevitable hill country cedar.  After every heavy rain, stray artifacts were scoured from the Indian cooking mound behind the cabin. Farther up the hillside toward the ridge, you still could find chert nodules lying about like petrified Osage orange, raw material for the scrapers, arrow heads and spear points that were fashioned around the fires.

Along the creek, tadpoles and water striders darted beneath canopies of maidenhair fern and hundreds of fossils – clams, whelks and mysterious heart-shaped shells – lined the limestone creek bed. Armadillo and deer scuffled and snorted their way through the nights, while javelina traveled the rocky arteries by day. In summer, lightning bugs rose from the damp and decaying bottoms like shimmering steam.  When autumn arrived, I longed to see a first freeze split open what we called ice plants, their tall, slender brown stems unable to contain the bubbling, curling froth of  water that betokened inexorable winter.

Through it all, through the sweltering summers and winter frosts, the cactus lived in its basket, hanging from a hook near the cabin. Sometimes in sunshine, sometimes in shade, it was watered by rain, or by the occasional visitor who’d throw a bit of water on it.  It didn’t grow, but it didn’t die. It simply was.

 Because we kept waiting for it to do something, I named it Godot.  Once named, it seemed less prickly and more accessible.  People talked to it, and gave it extra drinks. It seemed to become a bit greener, but it didn’t grow.  Another year passed, and then another, and Godot continued to simply hang around, a tiny, inscrutable bit of landscaping.

Eventually, things changed.  One thing led to another, and The Place was sold.  It was like another death, and once again possessions were distributed as tokens of remembrance. Amidst all the activity, Godot was nearly forgotten, but on a trip back a few weeks after the sale, I saw Godot hanging by the cabin.  Filled with guilt and chagrin, I called the new owner and asked if I could have Godot. Of course I could, and so it was that Godot made his way back to Houston and began a new life with a few other cacti on my patio.

The years of hanging out in a deserted valley hadn’t hurt Godot, but his gray plastic basket was looking a little ratty, so I decided a repotting was in order.  I found a nice clay pot, filled it with good dirt, and plunked him into it.  Just as he’d done at the cabin, he sat around, prickly and plain, tucked next to some lantana and a spineless cactus started from some pads also brought from The Place. 

One day, I glanced and him and thought, “What?”  He seemed to have grown. I started paying more attention, and realized that new dirt and regular watering was working its magic. He was growing, a quarter-inch at a time.  At the end of a year he’d grown a full three inches, and then, last year, the miracle happened.  A funny little “something” appeared near Godot’s top. After a few days, I realized it was a bud. A few days after that, it became clear: Godot was going to bloom. 

Walking outside a week later, I was astonished. My scrubby little cactus had produced a gorgeous pink blossom, with a yellow center and beautiful, frilly petals. I admired it from this way and that, thrilled to have such a wonderful surprise from a plant we’d all assumed to be, quite frankly, an under-achiever.  Waking on the second day, I thought, “I need to get a photo of Godot’s blossom.”  Unfortunately, that also was the day I learned another important lesson about cacti. Some of those blossoms last 24 hours – period.  Godot had done his thing, and the show was over.  The bloom was off the cactus.  There would be no photo. I was devastated.

 This year, I began watching in early spring, hoping for another bloom.  Apparently Godot was feeling even more chipper, because he set two buds rather than one, and the bloom-watch began.  Just before my trip to Mississippi, it became clear that blossoming wasn’t too far away. Nervous about missing a photo op again this year, I actually thought about taking the cactus with me on vacation.  Instead, I took the advice of my local plant guru and brought him inside, where lower light levels and cooler temperatures slowed him down a bit.

Returning home,  I put Godot back into the sunshine and discovered it was showtime.  Within a day his buds, which hadn’t changed a bit in my absence, began to show their pink.

 After two more days, the blooms began to open: first the petals, and then the bright centers.  They were larger than last year’s single bloom, on longer stalks that made them even showier next to the plain cactus.

 Once the process started, it was full speed ahead. Only six hours later, the blooms were fully opened, and bees were coming from everywhere. I couldn’t detect any fragrance, but any bee cruising the neighborhood surely couldn’t miss the big, bright blossoms.

 

The blooms remained open for the rest of the afternoon and evening, but as dusk approached, they began to pull in their petals, as though to close for the night. By the next morning, they had curled up quite tightly, and within 24 hours, Godot’s blossoms were completely shriveled. The stalks remained for several days, giving him the appearance of an amusing, Southwestern version of the cartoon character Domo.

 

While fully opened, the blossoms were almost chameleon-like, taking on the nature of the changing light and changing color accordingly.  The distinctiveness of each image is really quite astonishing.

 

Today, the excitement is over. Godot’s gone back to living his life as an ordinary cactus, a pedestrian little plant hardly noticeable among the lantana and geraniums.  But he’s given me something to ponder as I wait through this year for his next, wonderful show.  Looking at Godot, I remember that appearances aren’t predictive, that even the plainest among us can produce spectacular beauty, and that whenever unexpected beauty appears we should do our best to pay attention before its fleeting reality fades before our eyes.

Looking out my window I see sparrows plucking seed from the surface of Godot’s dirt and occasionally daring to reach between his thorns.  The bloom stalks still attach to his body by the thinnest of threads, almost as though the cactus itself hates to relinquish that last reminder of  its momentary glory. Laughing to myself, I walk out to the patio, take another look at my plain little friend and say “You go, Godot.  You really do.”

 

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Published in: on June 6, 2009 at 7:29 pm  Comments (12)  
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Watching Comet Lulin

I love the night sky: the star-pictures of the constellations, the waxing and waning of the moon, the great wash of the galaxies.  This week’s close passage of Comet Lulin, a beautiful and spectacular – and scientifically interesting – bit of celestial wonder simply couldn’t be passed by.  Last Tuesday night, the evening of Lulin’s closest approach, I spent two hours lying in my parking lot with a pair of binoculars, drinking it in.  As it turned out, I didn’t watch alone.  Calliope, my stray Muse-kitty took time from her nightly rounds to keep me company.  The poem is my way of holding on to the experience, even as Lulin streams off into the mysterious reaches of space.

 

Watching Lulin

Green-eyed and aloof,
you prowl down heaven’s alleys      
and lurk on Saturn’s doorstep with singular elegance,
a celestial stray hungry for attention.
Prone beneath your pathway,
stretched across a concrete bed with curbstone for a pillow
I squint and ponder,
consult the charts
and probe your space through time
until I feel the tug
and hear the tiny, worried voice.
An earthling stray has found her friend,
her food,
her solace
not rising tall against the sky but flattened to the ground,
eyes turned upward,
head bent back as though the victim of a fall.
Green eyes flashing,
she nudges at my pillowed head upon the curb,
pushes back my dismissive hand.
Earthbound, insistent,
she bites and tugs my hair as though to pull me upright,
restore her world’s axis
and right a universe gone mad.
Leaving Lulin to her flight
I reach out to grasp this nearer world passing by.
“Look up,”  I murmur as I run my fingers through her fur
and catch the glint of starlight in her eyes.
“A thousand years.”
“A thousand years.”

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Published in: on February 25, 2009 at 11:40 pm  Comments (10)  
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