Becoming the Sky

Even for those whose roots sink most deeply into the salty, seacoast soil, and whose lives blossom under the heat of a constant, coastal sun, summer brings ambivalence.

Eagerly anticipated through the long night of dormancy, desired for its warmth and coveted for its beauty, the Gulf Coast summer inevitably ends as a season of imprisonment.

With the rising of implacable heat and humidity, the pleasures of earlier, more temperate summer days begin slowly to devolve into a world of languid passivity. While a monotony of cicadas melds with the metallic hum of air conditioners, tendrils of lassitude twist their way into the heart’s smallest crevice, choking off energy and joy.

As the long days pass, windows close. Neighbors disappear. Birds grow silent. The stray, limping dog with the friendly demeanor and a scar encircling his foreleg no longer prowls the fenceline at night; the indolent cats seem not to breathe. Stretched over the stoop, seeking a bit of shade under the car or behind a trash bin, their presence gives pause. “Look at that,”  says the casual observer. “Is that thing alive?”

In the country, beds are pulled onto sleeping porches, or pulled even farther to rest under shadowy, star-stopping oaks.  For the fortunate, there are summer kitchens and expansive galleries where porch-sitters flutter west to east, south to north, seeking the breeze.

For others, there is only the soft susurration of fans, their sound muffled by draperies drawn over draperies, layers of imagined protection against the heat.  As if swathed in burqas, the houses sit, impassive. When sun-wearied inhabitants draw open the draperies, they glimpse a world remarkable only for its brilliant, glinting light and the harsh judgment of summer’s  oppressive truth:  “No. There has been no change. There will be no change. Not now. Not yet.”

In cities and towns, the stolid endurance of country folk is matched by a torpor so complete people wipe sweat from their brows and explain away a suddenly peaceful night by saying, “It’s too hot for crime.”

In that world of concrete and crowded neighborhoods, there is no rising evening breeze, no summer kitchen, no pulsing, star-studded night.  There is only the waiting: waiting for August to be done; waiting for September to end; then waiting again, for the coming of October, with its prairie-fresh wind and brilliant skies.

Should October come and go with no expected rains, no refreshment and no release of heat, the anguished waiting of summer’s prisoners becomes nearly unbearable. Yet, even as they wait, the Aeolian whisper breathes its promise:

There will come a day when the door to autumn will open.
There will come a rush of sudden leaves like the rattling of keys;
footsteps in the corridors of time;
a voice as crisp as wind-seared corn
and fresher than tumbled-up cirrus.

“It will be over,” whispers the wind. “Your time will have been served. The season of your impatience and longing will end.”

When that day comes, it arrives first as a scent: a subtle and barely perceptible drift of air redolent of snow still hidden in clouds, or of wind frothing the open ocean. A scent without a scent, it clears the palate for tasting every coming hint of autumn carried on the wind: faint whiffs of woodsmoke from the north, a bouquet of cane and rice clearing to the east, the acrid aftertaste of burning prairie.

Crossing streets, lounging about on street corners, trudging through parking lots or working in yards, people stop, and look around. Briefly at one with their earliest ancestors, they sniff the air with all the focus and intensity of startled animals, smiling as they sense a lifting of summer’s oppressive weight.

Tentative at first, then emboldened, quickening breezes slide along walls and around crumbling corners, stirring the dusty detritus of summer as they go. Blown free of moisture’s milky veils, the sky reclaims her rightful cerulean and topaz, deepening and darkening as the cirrus stream away, mares’ tails racing on the wind.

While mares’ tails fly, windows fly open.  A complaining squeak of wood here, a rasp and twang of aluminum there, and curtains imitate clouds. Opened windows lead to opening doors. Neighbors emerge, and communities come alive. The quarreling couple, the chattering children, the undisciplined dog, the too-loud drunk, the skateboarding teen — all begin to rediscover one another’s lives through the grace of windows and doors.

Tonight, I sit before my own opened windows, summer slightly eased but not entirely finished, rain and winds from the north bringing a hint of autumn to come. Some favorite summer sounds still linger – the metallic clack of palm leaves, irritated squawks from a heron startled off his perch, the faux-rain rippling of glass minnows — but against the familiar background, the sounds of a new season are resonating.

A few coots have returned, dignified and elegant  in appearance but utterly undignified in actions. Their cacophony of silly calls and riot of mad, splashy paddling as they break free of the water’s grasp is one of the best shows in town.

Three days ago, the first contingent of mallards arrived, exhausted, argumentative, and still a little cranky from their flight. Their insistent quacking continued for hours, until a neighbor with a fondness for open windows and a low tolerance for ducks had enough.“Dammit!” he yelled. “Shut up!

Amused by the exchange and drawn by it to other night-noises, I hear something else. Other windows are being opened, and the soft whirr of air conditioners nearly has ceased. Yet close at hand, its sound partly concealed by the insistent, full-throated ducks, one machine drones on, its low, insistent thrum permeating the night.

It seems astonishing. On this beautiful evening, even as the door to autumn begins to swing open, one person has chosen imprisonment: shuttering windows, closing off the night, ignoring the touch of the breeze, the chatter of creatures and the tender, resonant silence that emanates from the very heart of reality.

As with windows, so with life.  There are times when conditions require a shuttering off from life’s storms, a retreat from extremes of heated anger or cold, emotional distance that leave us anguished or exhausted.  Certainly, there are times to shade our eyes and drape our spirits with layers of protection, until the turning of life’s season brings relief.

But just as we throw open windows to catch the scent and the sounds of a turning season, there is a time to open ourselves to life, and to leave the prisons of our own making. The way of passivity, lassitude and stolid endurance is one way of life, but it is not the only way. As the Persian poet Rumi reminds us:

Your way begins
on the other side
become the sky
take an axe to the prison wall
walk out like someone
suddenly born into color
do it now

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Summer’s Iconic Sun

South Shore Harbor Lighthouse at Sunset  (click for greater clarity)

The Sun

Mary Oliver
Have you ever seen
in your life
more wonderful
than the way the sun,
every evening,
relaxed and easy,
floats toward the horizon
and into the clouds or the hills,
or the rumpled sea,
and is gone–
and how it slides again
out of the blackness,
every morning,
on the other side of the world,
like a red flower
streaming upward on its heavenly oils,
say, on a morning in early summer,
at its perfect imperial distance–
and have you ever felt for anything
such wild love–
do you think there is anywhere, in any language,
a word billowing enough
for the pleasure
that fills you,
as the sun
reaches out,
as it warms you
as you stand there,
or have you too
turned from this world–
or have you too
gone crazy
for power,
for things?

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Godot Is Gone, But Godette Goes On

Godot, at the Height of His Glory

From the beginning, they were inseparable. Self-effacing, green, more-or-less prickly, they contented themselves with taking the afternoon sun in a far corner of the patio, telling tales of their travels to one another and gently ridiculing their over-achieving neighbor, a dwarf schefflera who prided herself on needing to be trimmed on a monthly basis.

Despite their own glacial growth rates and their refusal to claim attention by blooming, I grew fond of them. I gave them names: first Godot, then Godette. I talked to them, nurtured them, and fussed over them more than I was willing to admit. Eventually, I told their stories, both here, and here.

Godot was a Lace cactus, known in scientific circles as Echinocereus reichenbachii His ancestors, native to Texas and common throughout our Hill Country, have long-established roots in the state. Some of his kind were noted and recorded by the German scientist, Ferdinand Roemer, during his own travels through Texas between 1845 and 1847.

How Godot ended up on my patio is a simple enough story. (more…)

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Schooled by Summer

Never mind the calendar. On the Texas coast, summer shimmers into being when she will, and when she arrives, the signs are everywhere.

Store shelves begin to be emptied of Gatorade and bottled water. Bandanas and straw hats appear. Yard workers stop more often to wipe their faces, and even the Ladies Who Lunch begin to sweat. They don’t “perspire” or “glow,” as proper Southern ladies should. They sweat right along with the yard crews, and they do it at nine in the morning. 

Soon, it becomes too hot to walk barefooted on a boat deck or dock. The sharp, metallic trill of cicadas replaces birdsong, and rueful humans can’t resist asking one another,”Hot enough for you?” It’s summer for sure, no matter what the calendar says.  (more…)

The Shying of A Violet

sweetly bowered
  beneath these tendriled
  branches, why turn away
from morning’s recognition?
Avert your face from plucking hands?
“True mystery,” sighs the bending bough.
 “A puzzle,”  flocked and wand’ring warblers sing.

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