
A few years ago, the mother of a dear friend passed away. As often happens, some of the mother’s possessions were offered to those who’d known her as tokens of remembrance. Another friend who’s a plant lover was especially interested in keeping alive some of Enid’s favorite flowers, so a bush or two and some potted blooms came back to Houston, while a scrubby little cactus in a hanging basket went to live at The Place.
For years The Place, a cabin tucked into 23 acres of Texas hill country valley, was my favorite “getaway” destination. The cabin itself, about 16′ x 16′ with windows all around for cross-drafts and a screen door that slapped shut with a terrific, metallic “thwang”, had all the modern conveniences: a wood burning stove for heat, Coleman lanterns, an old apartment-sized propane stove and “running water”. The “running” was true, but a bit of a joke. It was gravity-fed from a barrel in a tree through a single faucet into the “kitchen” sink. A hand-built dam pooled water from the three springs that ran even in the most severe drought, and a submersible pump tucked into the little pool did a fine job of pushing water up into the barrel.

The valley itself was filled with scrub and live oaks, pin oak, black walnut, native cherry and the inevitable hill country cedar. After every heavy rain, stray artifacts were scoured from the Indian cooking mound behind the cabin. Farther up the hillside toward the ridge, you still could find chert nodules lying about like petrified Osage orange, raw material for the scrapers, arrow heads and spear points that were fashioned around the fires.
Along the creek, tadpoles and water striders darted beneath canopies of maidenhair fern and hundreds of fossils – clams, whelks and mysterious heart-shaped shells – lined the limestone creek bed. Armadillo and deer scuffled and snorted their way through the nights, while javelina traveled the rocky arteries by day. In summer, lightning bugs rose from the damp and decaying bottoms like shimmering steam. When autumn arrived, I longed to see a first freeze split open what we called ice plants, their tall, slender brown stems unable to contain the bubbling, curling froth of water that betokened inexorable winter.
Through it all, through the sweltering summers and winter frosts, the cactus lived in its basket, hanging from a hook near the cabin. Sometimes in sunshine, sometimes in shade, it was watered by rain, or by the occasional visitor who’d throw a bit of water on it. It didn’t grow, but it didn’t die. It simply was.

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Because we kept waiting for it to do something, I named it Godot. Once named, it seemed less prickly and more accessible. People talked to it, and gave it extra drinks. It seemed to become a bit greener, but it didn’t grow. Another year passed, and then another, and Godot continued to simply hang around, a tiny, inscrutable bit of landscaping.
Eventually, things changed. One thing led to another, and The Place was sold. It was like another death, and once again possessions were distributed as tokens of remembrance. Amidst all the activity, Godot was nearly forgotten, but on a trip back a few weeks after the sale, I saw Godot hanging by the cabin. Filled with guilt and chagrin, I called the new owner and asked if I could have Godot. Of course I could, and so it was that Godot made his way back to Houston and began a new life with a few other cacti on my patio.
The years of hanging out in a deserted valley hadn’t hurt Godot, but his gray plastic basket was looking a little ratty, so I decided a repotting was in order. I found a nice clay pot, filled it with good dirt, and plunked him into it. Just as he’d done at the cabin, he sat around, prickly and plain, tucked next to some lantana and a spineless cactus started from some pads also brought from The Place.
One day, I glanced and him and thought, “What?” He seemed to have grown. I started paying more attention, and realized that new dirt and regular watering was working its magic. He was growing, a quarter-inch at a time. At the end of a year he’d grown a full three inches, and then, last year, the miracle happened. A funny little “something” appeared near Godot’s top. After a few days, I realized it was a bud. A few days after that, it became clear: Godot was going to bloom.
Walking outside a week later, I was astonished. My scrubby little cactus had produced a gorgeous pink blossom, with a yellow center and beautiful, frilly petals. I admired it from this way and that, thrilled to have such a wonderful surprise from a plant we’d all assumed to be, quite frankly, an under-achiever. Waking on the second day, I thought, “I need to get a photo of Godot’s blossom.” Unfortunately, that also was the day I learned another important lesson about cacti. Some of those blossoms last 24 hours – period. Godot had done his thing, and the show was over. The bloom was off the cactus. There would be no photo. I was devastated.
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This year, I began watching in early spring, hoping for another bloom. Apparently Godot was feeling even more chipper, because he set two buds rather than one, and the bloom-watch began. Just before my trip to Mississippi, it became clear that blossoming wasn’t too far away. Nervous about missing a photo op again this year, I actually thought about taking the cactus with me on vacation. Instead, I took the advice of my local plant guru and brought him inside, where lower light levels and cooler temperatures slowed him down a bit.
Returning home, I put Godot back into the sunshine and discovered it was showtime. Within a day his buds, which hadn’t changed a bit in my absence, began to show their pink.

After two more days, the blooms began to open: first the petals, and then the bright centers. They were larger than last year’s single bloom, on longer stalks that made them even showier next to the plain cactus.

Once the process started, it was full speed ahead. Only six hours later, the blooms were fully opened, and bees were coming from everywhere. I couldn’t detect any fragrance, but any bee cruising the neighborhood surely couldn’t miss the big, bright blossoms.

The blooms remained open for the rest of the afternoon and evening, but as dusk approached, they began to pull in their petals, as though to close for the night. By the next morning, they had curled up quite tightly, and within 24 hours, Godot’s blossoms were completely shriveled. The stalks remained for several days, giving him the appearance of an amusing, Southwestern version of the cartoon character Domo.
While fully opened, the blossoms were almost chameleon-like, taking on the nature of the changing light and changing color accordingly. The distinctiveness of each image is really quite astonishing.



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Today, the excitement is over. Godot’s gone back to living his life as an ordinary cactus, a pedestrian little plant hardly noticeable among the lantana and geraniums. But he’s given me something to ponder as I wait through this year for his next, wonderful show. Looking at Godot, I remember that appearances aren’t predictive, that even the plainest among us can produce spectacular beauty, and that whenever unexpected beauty appears we should do our best to pay attention before its fleeting reality fades before our eyes.
Looking out my window I see sparrows plucking seed from the surface of Godot’s dirt and occasionally daring to reach between his thorns. The bloom stalks still attach to his body by the thinnest of threads, almost as though the cactus itself hates to relinquish that last reminder of its momentary glory. Laughing to myself, I walk out to the patio, take another look at my plain little friend and say “You go, Godot. You really do.”







This is just lovely – and especially the chameleon-like character of the flowers’ color. I’m sad that you could no longer keep your wild retreat place, but you’ve captured it well in writing – and have a little bit left of it in this plant.
Mary Ellen,
Letting go of The Place was sad, but after all ~ that was only 23 acres, which leaves a lot of new world to explore! I am happy to have Godot, though. If he never blooms again, I’ll always have these wonderful photos. I was almost as astonished by the photos as by the blooms.
Thanks so very much for stopping by, and for your kind words.
Linda
That is one of the most extraordinary blossoms I’ve ever seen. I was quite worried for a bit there, while reading, that there would be no photo of a blossom. But then the rewards were fantastic – such glory in this simple plant, just as you artfully expressed.
Ruth,
It is an amazing pair of blooms, isn’t it? New Mexico is glorious when the claret cups bloom, and the Texas prickly pear can be breathtaking, but this lowly little guy outdid himself.
I had to giggle a bit at your comment. After I had to wait through an entire year to see the blossom again, you don’t think I was going to give you the bloom right up front, now do you?
It’s always a pleasure to have you stop by.
Linda
They are just gorgeous and so chameleon-like. Maybe next year there will be three. And how wonderful that Godot has such a good home. His flourishing with your love reminds me of the little Christmas tree on the Charlie Brown Christmas show.
BTW, I’m about to take a cherry and blueberry pie out of the oven. If you’d like to photograph one of your pies, I’ll be happy to post it.
Ella,
The Christmas tree – what a wonderful comparison! Another little under-achiever gone famous! Maybe I should give Godot his own facebook page… or perhaps not
We’ll have to try for a pic of the next pie. The first one is in no shape to have its photo taken right now. But the recipe is wonderful, and everyone was quite pleased!
Linda
Dear
Annie DillardLinda,What a wonderful getaway your Place must have been. I am sorry that you had to give it up, but am so glad that you thought to retrieve Godot. Without the blooms, he is cute. But those flowers–did someone say enchanting? Sometimes the most humble produce the greatest beauty. Thank you.
ds,
Oh, gosh. I can die a happy woman! I’ll never, ever achieve anything close to what Annie Dillard does with words, but to even be mentioned in conjunction with her… those folks at the Tony Awards last night couldn’t be any happier. Thank you.
Maybe I’ll adopt Godot as my model for artistic perseverance. It could be I’m just in my “sitting around stage” now, and one day something really splashy will show up! Now that I think of it, that really tickles me. Some people can spend hundreds on writers’ workshops, but me – I’ll just put Godot outside the window where I can see him, and keep on keepin’ on!
Linda
These are spectacular pictures, Linda! That they didn’t last long makes them all the more precious! Your TLC sure is the key factor in making them bloom like that.
Also, I found the name you gave it simply ingenious. It takes faithfulness to nurture a life that ’simply was’. The waiting is well worth it… and Godot seems to have a mind of its own. An uplifting post indeed!
Arti,
Thanks to my following of Ripple Effects, I actually tuned in to the Tonys last night. I didn’t last through the whole program, but had to laugh at the beginning, when an actor in a production of “Waiting for Godot” was nominated. They may still be waiting for him on Broadway, but we know the truth
I thought you might pick up on that line about lives that simply “are”. That’s another path to travel, and the link between this story and the folks in “Perspiration and Inspiration”. In a world that obsesses over doing, sometimes just being is enough. I think that’s why I dislike text and twitter so viscerally – they fill up every bit of space and time that could otherwise be devoted to useless pursuits like looking at the clouds, or listening to a bird.
Ah, well. Counter-culture looks a little different today than it did in the 60’s!
Linda
I’m so very glad you have something from The Place — and something so “living” is even better. Your photos are beautiful, and I love this story. The waiting, the patience, the nurturing. Godot. A perfect name.
I’d always heard of the “cactus flower” and the idea that a prickly being could bring forth such beauty — even if only for a few moments — always appealed to me. Now, I see how beautiful it really is.
jeanie,
Watching Godot, I was most taken by the thought that this IS the way of the world. It’s continually producing beauty all around us, and most of it goes unseen. Not only do we miss hearing most of the falling trees in the forest, we miss most of the singing birds, blooming plants and shooting stars. It’s just the way of the world.
I heard one of our interchangeable celebrities say one, “I’ve never heard of her – who’s her press agent?” Maybe Mother Nature needs better pub, or maybe – just maybe – secrecy and fleeting glimpses are part of what make her beauties so special!
Thanks so much for taking time to stop by, even while you’re counting down the days. And thanks, too, for the nice words about the essay.
Linda
The pictures…oh, the pictures. Thanks for posting them. I can see the changes in the light from where you were standing or were holding the camera. And the glorious centers of the flowers. As with so many, the centers are filled with light. I don’t know if it’s scent that calls the insects and birds. I think it’s the light. It’s like the universe is there in the center, the energy, all things spiritual. And that is the attraction. Godot did a beautiful job. How exhausted he was hours later. Please praise him for us. I suspect he reacts greatly to your voice,to your energy.
And what a wonderful name for a plant! What story would Godot write of his life? how does he see it, his time at the cabin and now with you? For years,I’ve had a book on my shelf that I bought in college: THE SECRET LIFE OF PLANTS. Think I’ll read a bit of it. Good old Godot!!!
oh,
The centers were exquisite. After the petals opened, it took a while longer for all of the yellow in the center to open. It was tightly clustered at first – just amazing.
Another person mentioned that there might be a story in here somewhere – but I’d never thought of telling it from Godot’s perspective. Wouldn’t that be fun? Regardless, I’m awfully fond of him and have told him all about how famous he is!
I’d never heard of The Secret Life of Plants – and while googling, I discovered that Stevie Wonder made an album of the same name, loosely based on the book and the television series. There is just so much beauty and amazement in the world – even close at hand!
Linda
Linda,
This was a delightful read. I had to laugh at the term “under-achiever.” Like Christmas, Godot’s blooms are worth waiting for and deserving of all the fuss when they arrive. They are absolutely beautiful. Godot turned out to be so photogenic. Who knew?
Bella
Bella,
I wondered who would catch the “under-achiever”. Is it wrong to laugh at things you write yourself?
As for the beauty – I certainly never knew! The second pair of blooms seemed so much more lovely than the first blossom. I wonder if they were, or it I simply was more attentive. I know this – the contrast between any cactus and its bloom is just wonderful. Stolid, silent and prickly on the one hand, frilly and almost ethereal on the other. It’s a new world to explore.
Linda
Linda,
I read this to my husband and he enjoyed it. As I was reading it to him, it occurred to me that this could be reworked just a bit, and it would make a wonderful tale for children. How about a book?
Bella
Uh-oh. You’re the third person to make such a comment about Godot. For some reason, your “how about a book?” question took me straight back to my first time on the high dive at our local swimming pool. There I was at the end, looking down at that water, and there was no way back – the ladder was full of other people waiting their turn. Hmmmm……..
Linda
This was such wonderful story. Thank you.
I love cactuses myself, but they have to say indoors in my country. I bought saguaro-seeds when I visited Arizona (2003) and now I have two little saguaro cacti on my windowsill.
Désirée,
I never even thought to look for seeds! Since the blossoms fell down into the dirt around Godot, it may be there any seeds are down there. I’ll have to keep an eye out for new plants, and not get rid of that batch of dirt. Wouldn’t it be fun to have little Godettes?
What a difference between your home and Arizona! It must have been a lovely trip, and how nice that you have a living reminder now.
Glad you enjoyed the story. It was fun to put together.
Linda
Your story bought a tear to my eye, Linda…
Little Godot, living life the best he could, with no one giving him much credit or attention, until you took him home and took care of him. Even you didn’t know what he was capable of, but you nurtured him anyway. And now he is famous! That’s life.
qugrainne,
You know, when I look back over it all, I could get a little teary myself. It would have been so easy to forget, dismiss, ignore… but look what we all would have missed.
It really doesn’t take much imagination to move on to the next step, does it? There are Godots of every sort scattered throughout our lives – animals, plants, people. What counts is what we do when we notice them.
Thanks so much for taking time to stop by, and for your kind words for Godot
Linda
Lovely comedy Linda! And gorgeous pictures, what if you had missed Godot’s arrival? Horrible to think of. I have to ask, does the restrained tone of your writing belie any fluttering pulses, clicking of heels, gushing you might have done when you spoke to anyone about Godot?
Jacqueline!
What a delight to see you! And how completely like you to find the comedy here. I’m pleased you saw it.
There was no way I was going to miss the “second coming” of Godot’s blossoms. I wouldn’t have cancelled my trip to Mississippi, but that cactus surely would have ridden along on the floorboards if I wasn’t sure I could slow things down. As for those clicking heels, I only wish you could have been here to see the expression on Mom’s face when I said to her, “I can’t stay and visit now – my cactus is going to bloom”. You could tell that the phrase “idiot child” had just crossed her mind!
Now, I must go see if you’re back at “your” place, too!
Linda